realizations on an island

Just two days ago I was walking down the beautiful shores of Boracay, feeling the fine sand under my feet.


I almost didn't want to leave. I am determined to go back there next year and I'm bringing my family with me.
The view of the island from a view deck on one of the hills. We drove up the hill on ATV's and had to climb up this:
plus the view deck itself. It was a light cardio workout but it was totally worth it.
This is now part of my dream wall:
To have this kind of view, this kind of property. It was also on this trip that I got to experience my first plane ride, first time to go out of mainland Luzon, and to step foot on Boracay.

This trip was a mind-opening experience for me because it made me see what I could provide for my family and how it could be made possible. All thanks to the opportunity that I grabbed a year ago. I am so thankful and blessed.

on happiness

Because we are the captain of our own ship. We can choose to be either the victim or the victor. We can choose to bury ourselves in pity partying or to live life with no hang ups.

It's all up to you.

dream!

I am sending my desire out to the universe! I want to go and relax here every year!

reflex

Just months after I finally gave in and reconciled with my father, today was our first day out after sooo long. I was actually looking forward to our bonding time since I've forgiven him and he's being so supportive of me now. But I surprised myself that the old me who had a short fuse when it comes to him, came back as if from muscle memory. Sarcasm and eye-rolling all over the place. It was my front back then, my idea of self-preservation. Today it was like deja vu. Even though I know in my heart that I've forgiven him, that I'm trying to make things better by moving forward.

I'm not proud of the version of me that was with him and my sister today.

limbo

I think I've forgotten what it's like to not have to wake up at 6 in the morning, worry about traffic and rush to work. It feels almost unnatural, to wake up at whatever time I feel like getting out of bed, to have the time to choose between working out in the morning or teach football, to have the time to do either at all.

It will take some time to shift my mindset from employee to running my own business. And yes, it's true what they say, that it's harder when you don't have a boss.